January 20 2015

Four O’Clock in the Morning

I woke up at four AM with my mind whirring. 

This week. Busy. So busy. Don’t want to forget anything. Grades close on Friday. Two projects due. Formal observation on Friday. First grad class meets Wednesday. Syllabus is ready. I have to gather books to bring with me to school. Blog. My OLW blog post for Thursday. Birthday Dinner on Thursday. Dinner out Friday. Snow?!?! There could be SNOW?!?! Don’t think about it. Snacks for Wednesday? Should I get more? Formal lesson plan written for Friday? I should wait and see if there’s a snow day between now and then. I can’t think of what to write for Thursday!!! Did I pick the wrong OLW? What should I say?!?! (I love the interrobang!) Nothing’s coming to me. Everything I start sounds silly and dumb and just plain bad. And blogging…the SOLC is coming soon. Can I do it? Can I blog everyday for a month AND teach a graduate class AND teach 100 sixth graders AND…breathe. Stop! Yes. Day by day. I can do it. I will do it.

Pardon my brain dump. When I wake up at 4AM with thoughts spinning faster than a roller coaster, I need to write. I call this kind of writing a brain dump. The process of writing it makes me feel calmer.  

How do you calm down in the midst of panic?

December 9 2014

Slow Down!

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I need my brain to slow down. It’s on auto-pilot during the day. Teaching, meeting, making decisions, conferencing, listening. All of these things are happening in my classroom. When I sit down to write, to read, to grade, I can’t. The neurons in my brain continue to zoom around there like a hummingbird and I can’t concentrate. I can’t focus. This is a problem. 
 
Today during my final block of the day, we wrote brain dumps. A brain dump is a free write, but brain dump is more fun to say. This is where you keep your hand moving for the entire writing time…seven minutes today…and you write continuously. Brain dumps get the stuff out of your head that’s blocking the really good stuff. It gives you, the writer, a place to put all of the worries and concerns you have. This way you are able to write all of those interesting and creative ideas that are hiding in the back of your mind. No judgement during the brain dump. If you think it, you write it. No worrying about correctness. Write. Write. Write. Release your stream of consciousness. 
 
Once we discussed the ins and outs of a brain dump, I set the timer for seven minutes, sat at an empty student desk to join them, and we were off. I wrote and wrote and wrote and so did the sixth graders. 
After the timer sang our end, we discussed our feelings and thoughts about this process. Students answered thoughtfully about this experience. 
“I started full. Emptied out. And now I’m full again.”
“When I started, I felt bad. Now I feel good.”
“I had no idea this is how I was feeling before I started writing.” 
 
While I needed the writing time, it seemed the students did too. I’m impressed at their reflective statements. This short time of writing didn’t change the world, but it changed us. More brain dumps coming soon. You should try it!
October 16 2012

A week…

Field trip

Field trip

I’ve been waking up at night with such feelings of guilt for not blogging more… or at all.  It’s been a week. I feel like a failure…until I think about everything else that’s been going on. I’m a work in progress. Since I last posted, we took our first field trip to a college, we wrote brain dumps, read our books, we continued with the read aloud, we drafted our first piece of writing, we attended the book fair…what else? Professionally, I spent some time planning to present at a national conference with my colleagues. (This is very exciting for me! I can’t wait!!) My hope is that  you’ll forgive me for the lack of posts.

Brain dumps. I’ll explain. If you write, you may be familiar with the concept of morning pages. I first read about them from the book The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron when I was in graduate school in the 90s. It’s stream of consciousness writing. There are multiple reasons for brain dumps. They clear our brains. They build our fluency and help us write more and write longer. The more we let go, the crazier our brain dumps can be. They can be used as ideas for future pieces of writing, too. Students are enjoying the brain dumps. In addition to using them in class, I use them when I’m upset or confused about something. Writing a brain dump for a certain amount of time (or until I’m done writing) often helps me untangle my mind and I’m able to figure out the root of my problem. I encourage students to use them at home as well as at school.

Here are a few photos of our week…

Brain dump page 2

Brain dump page 2

Brain dump page 1

Brain dump page 1